So there I was again. Cranking up to get ready for my next
follow-up appointment with my oncologist.
And just let me tell you I reached a point on the day of that visit
where I simply turned to The Lord and told Him that I was sick of focusing on
me all the time.
Have you ever felt that way? Where you get sick of yourself?
I am sure in a way, it breaks His heart. Because I am His creation. His child.
And He adores me through and through.
But He also sees what I can be, and I
sometimes only see what I am. And I can
get pretty frustrated with myself. Especially on days when I am going for a
follow-up appointment with my oncologist, and I know I have not sufficiently
given it all into the hands of The King of Kings.
So I asked Him to help me find a way to stop
focusing on myself. And He was quick to
give an answer.
And I laughed in delight!
One of the first times The Lord ever asked me
to do something like what He had just asked me, the focus subject was a huge angry-looking
black man on the downtown Dallas city bus who looked like he could crush me
with one finger and a thumb. Another
time, the focus was the entire population of the bus.
At least this wasn’t a request He had made
that involved a bus…
But His reply to my question was so
simple. So perfect. So not about me.
And I felt immediate relief because the focus
of the day was no longer about me. It
was about them.
So when I got up to the waiting room to see
the brilliant Dr. Klemow at UTSWMC, I asked for everyone’s attention.
And with shaking knees, but strong voice, I
told them this. I told them that through
the Grace of God and this clinic, I had become a cancer survivor. That it was hard, but I made it through
because my creator is faithful. And that
they are going to get through this season, too, just like I did. Then I told them that I would pray for them
to be encouraged, and accept His love for them.
The room was silent for a moment, and then
erupted in clapping and “thank you”. I
didn’t even get a chance to sit down, because some of them came up to me
immediately and wanted to tell me they really needed to hear that today.
Because people are attracted to those who
know how to roar.
And my Emmanuel let me go through some stuff
so that I could roar for Him. He tells
us all that should be our response in Psalm 107:2.
So guys, shake the dust off those vocal cords
and let’s hear some roaring out there.
The world is hungry to hear you.
